Being single

Am currently reading this book about how being single is fabulous and all, the book is great so far, and one of the suggestions was to keep a list of things you wanna do when you are free so you don't allow loneliness get to you... so here's my list:

• I wanna go out more often, and by out, I mean places that I've always wanted to go, but usually too lazy to move my arse for, eg: gardens, debenhams,
• Must go watch a movie all by myself, this is a lil scary for me...
• Take a drive up to some place, and rate men who pass by, lol
• Learn French!
• Go out with someone you lost touch with
• Pamper myself by going for massages, spa, etc.
• Volunteer at a home, hospital, etc.
• Blog!
• Travel more - this was always the priority on the list btw, just that I always have insufficient funds, hehe
• Take long walks - this I always do, helps clear my head!
• Take myself to a full blown dinner - and wink at the cute guy at the next table, provided there is one, lol.
  

Well, I guess that's all I can think of for now, perhaps when I think of other things to do, I'll add it this list...

First Day Blues

For some reason, I don't really feel like teaching tomorrow.

Still not feeling well, and I've been pretty sick these past few days…

Guess I have to get used to it, the sooner, the better.

Is it true?

Is it true that you don't have a life, when your life revolves around work?

I'm constantly working these days. The weekends are spent sleeping in, and to catch up on the rest I need to get ahead for the coming week. I have made my decision, and decisions, like everything else, requires sacrifice.

Of late, I realize that I don't have much time to spend with my friends, and family. What's more troubling is the thought of my soul mate going to a far away place for a long, long time. I know it is my duty and my priority to make her my number one right now, but I can't.

I'v made my decision. And making a decision means sticking through it. And that is exactly what I will do. I will however spend as much time as I possibly can with her, because only the good Lord knows how much I'm about to miss her.

Life can be challenging, but it is how you cope with it that makes you different.

And this is what I choose to beleive right now.

When is enough ever enough?

I was just starting to do my assignments today, and I suddenly stopped to think, when is enough ever going to be enough?

I know for a fact, that after this April I don't wanna see another textbook, or do an assignment in the next 5 years or so, at least...

I know that I wanna get a better job, and earn more money, and go for all those vacations I've been dreaming about...

I know that I wanna lose weight, and when I reach a certain goal, I'm going to get a tatoo that I've always wanted...

I know I wanna push myself further and see what I can really achieve in this one lifetime, but sometimes, I feel like I just don't know when enough is enough. Is the world such that it commands that there should never be enough, or should I just lose the kiasu side of me, and stop myself when enough is enough. Problem is, I keep thinking about more stuff than I should at a particular time, sometimes it's good, but sometimes, it just gets you down.

What I really need to do for myself is:



Stop thinking about the future that's far ahead of you, and just concentrate on NOW.

NOW.